wifey, u noe how worried i was when u went missing the whole night ytd. hais. i really felt damn lousy as i couldn't find a way to contact u. i tried many ways. but i still failed. such a disappointment. hais.ytd i really felt damn helpless. i dunno wat to do and wat to say. my mind was just in the state of blank. hais.
all i could do was to wait for u to cal. but i didnt recieve any calls or msg from u. some more u were at his house. i'm really afraid tat something might happen to u. waited and waited. until i tot of going down to ur house. i was still damn worried and i dunno wat was i thinking. bad things started to happen. i intend to take 168. but when i reached the bus stop i saw tat the first bus was at 7am, when at tat point of time was only 5.55am. i was oredi damn blur. i seated at the bus stop thinking wat to do. suddenly i tot of another plan. by going to sengkang and den take 161. so i took 27 down to sengkang. when i saw 161 i was damn happy. but actually i didnt noe i took the wrong direction. i panicked. i was afraid tat i will nt be in time to reach ur hse.so i quickly msged my cousin. he lent me some money and i straight away cabbed to his house, den cabbed back down to ur house.
when i reached ur house downstairs, u still did not call. its was ard 7.15am le. i satrted to get worried and anxious. i called alot of ppl asking about ur where abouts. hais. but to no avail... failed again. so i got no choice but to wait and wait.from the time i reached i waited till ard 9.30 i recieved ur msg. i was damn happy. but i still cant accept the fact tat u stayed over at his house. hais. imagine i'm the one staying over at my ex house and not picking up ur calls. how will u feel? den u said u're coming back oredi. so i waited. when u were turning into my direction wat i saw really made my heart shatter. i noe u have to hold on to him as he was riding. but the moment i saw u holding on to his waist, in my heart i was crying. but i just didnt wanna show it out. so i just kept quiet. hais. =(
ok. den when we reached ur house. actually i intended to slp. i tot u would accompany me. by lying next to me or talking to me. but u said u wanted to pack ur room. so i said ok. actually the whole time i was not sleeping. so after u packed ur room, u went to played comp. when i saw tat i straight away rushed back to ur room and i just started crying. tots started coming into my mind. worst is tat i saw the big frame about u and him. i couldn't stop my tears from flowing. hais. i really felt tat i didn't meant much to u. cause i saw alot of things. hais. first was tat photo. secondly was tat the little doggy soft toy i bought for u was lying on the floor. and all i saw was all about u and him. hais. and i bet those things on the shelf most of them are from him ba. i just couldn't stop my tears. just nice i was hearing to a song called "zhi dao". i felt it was really meant for me.
i totally felt damn lonely the whole day. in front of u, i was smiling happily. but deep in my heart was full of tears, sadness and heartache. i dunno y. hais. wifey, when u read this i hope u'll not be angry. i just wan u to noe how i feeling. hais. i'm sorry.
am i stupid to let u contact with him? i noe u cant stop contacting him. if i dun let u contact him, am i being too selfish? i really dunno. hais. now i really feel tat i cant even do anything. hais. i'm like giving away my gf like tat. hais. wifey, i dun wan to give u away. I WAN U!!!! hais.
***wifey, can u tell me? whether u'll still contact him or stop contacting?
