Jonathan

Thursday, September 3, 2009

02/09/09 Tuesday

tats wat i will do if i'm bored.

mr seet! u think u smile like this cute?

my ans: nah!

fabian li! u only noe how to drink. wat else do u noe?

hey!!! long time didnt update my blog le. getting rusty. wahaha.since now i got nth better to do, i decided to update my blog. haha. quite a few things happened. i'm not gonna state all. just going to randomly state a few. hahs.

firstly, those whom noe me well, i went back to camp on friday to do my last duty. initially was coping well with it. but after tat i dun feel like staying in camp. cause its a friday night and wat am i doing in this stupid camp. lols. so i tot of going home. den i approached my sergeant. i asked him if i could leave tonight at ard 11 plus. he said ok. so i went back. before i left i told him to rmb to scan for the breakfast the next day. which i think he did not. cause on monday(31/08/09), one of my campmates called me while i was sleeping. he said my officer wants me back. so i asked wat happened. he said i did not scan and i needed to pay for the breakfast. but i told them i told the sergeant to scan le. they said no one scanned. so as the duty personel on tat day, my duty is to scan for all the meals. but no one scanned. so i got to take the punishment lo. lan lan suck thumb. lols.

secondly, on monday(31/08/09). i dunno what went wrong with me. the whole day i was damn frustrated and my face was damn moody. the wierd thing is i myself oso dunno wats wrong. and i made the ppl around me pissed off. now, i'm saying sorry to whoever tat i made them felt pissed. esp wifey and mummy. on tat day, wifey treated me to eat SAKURA buffet. but the whole day i was putting on a black face which made wifey damn pissed. sorry wifey. i really dunno wats wrong with me. hais. really didnt mean it.

thirdly and lastly, wahaha. ytd was supposed to go and settle the fine thingy for my camp. but i woke up in the afternoon. so didnt feel like going. so called back and said i not feeling well. wahaha. den they ask me come back do today. i say dun wan. cause i tml going back so one shot do. dun wan go down just to do tat thing. haha. cause i oso dun feel like going back. lols. so continued to slack at home until around 2 plus. went to orchard to see some things. which i intend to buy. after tat went to lucky plaza to play arcade while waiting for wifey to knock off. and den met up with her. so we intend to head back to her fome for dinner and den go for a movie. but before heading home we went to causeway point to buy things. so went she said she wanted to go into a VCD shop, in my heart i told myself tat we aren't going to catch any movie le. cause she bought a series of show. and i noe if once she start watching tat show she cant stop. hahas. so after dinner i slacked for awhile and den headed to her room to slp. haha.woke up at 9plus and she was still watching the show. lols. den all they way i slacked in the room lo. haha. stayed over at her hse. woke up ard 12. wifey recieved a msg from her sister saying tat she wans wifey to accompany her to tampines to meet some buyer for the clothes. so while waiting for wifey's sister to knock off, she decided to catch a movie, the proposal. wahaha. damn funny sia.

after the movie we went to far east for wanton mee. long time nv eat le.lols. shiok!! den headed down to paragon to meet wifey's sister. i slacked awhile and den go down geylang to meet my fellow brothers, edward and fabian. haha. they met their gf. i was like an extra lo. haha.den tok cock and slack till ard 10 den head back home. haha.tat's about all i'm going to say. hahah.

wifey, thanks for being a understanding gf for me. i really appreciate it. i really love u lots. and i cant afford to lose my dear princess. i love you!!!! muacks&huggies!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

To My Dearest Wifey,

wifey, u noe how worried i was when u went missing the whole night ytd. hais. i really felt damn lousy as i couldn't find a way to contact u. i tried many ways. but i still failed. such a disappointment. hais.ytd i really felt damn helpless. i dunno wat to do and wat to say. my mind was just in the state of blank. hais.

all i could do was to wait for u to cal. but i didnt recieve any calls or msg from u. some more u were at his house. i'm really afraid tat something might happen to u. waited and waited. until i tot of going down to ur house. i was still damn worried and i dunno wat was i thinking. bad things started to happen. i intend to take 168. but when i reached the bus stop i saw tat the first bus was at 7am, when at tat point of time was only 5.55am. i was oredi damn blur. i seated at the bus stop thinking wat to do. suddenly i tot of another plan. by going to sengkang and den take 161. so i took 27 down to sengkang. when i saw 161 i was damn happy. but actually i didnt noe i took the wrong direction. i panicked. i was afraid tat i will nt be in time to reach ur hse.so i quickly msged my cousin. he lent me some money and i straight away cabbed to his house, den cabbed back down to ur house.

when i reached ur house downstairs, u still did not call. its was ard 7.15am le. i satrted to get worried and anxious. i called alot of ppl asking about ur where abouts. hais. but to no avail... failed again. so i got no choice but to wait and wait.from the time i reached i waited till ard 9.30 i recieved ur msg. i was damn happy. but i still cant accept the fact tat u stayed over at his house. hais. imagine i'm the one staying over at my ex house and not picking up ur calls. how will u feel? den u said u're coming back oredi. so i waited. when u were turning into my direction wat i saw really made my heart shatter. i noe u have to hold on to him as he was riding. but the moment i saw u holding on to his waist, in my heart i was crying. but i just didnt wanna show it out. so i just kept quiet. hais. =(

ok. den when we reached ur house. actually i intended to slp. i tot u would accompany me. by lying next to me or talking to me. but u said u wanted to pack ur room. so i said ok. actually the whole time i was not sleeping. so after u packed ur room, u went to played comp. when i saw tat i straight away rushed back to ur room and i just started crying. tots started coming into my mind. worst is tat i saw the big frame about u and him. i couldn't stop my tears from flowing. hais. i really felt tat i didn't meant much to u. cause i saw alot of things. hais. first was tat photo. secondly was tat the little doggy soft toy i bought for u was lying on the floor. and all i saw was all about u and him. hais. and i bet those things on the shelf most of them are from him ba. i just couldn't stop my tears. just nice i was hearing to a song called "zhi dao". i felt it was really meant for me.

i totally felt damn lonely the whole day. in front of u, i was smiling happily. but deep in my heart was full of tears, sadness and heartache. i dunno y. hais. wifey, when u read this i hope u'll not be angry. i just wan u to noe how i feeling. hais. i'm sorry.

am i stupid to let u contact with him? i noe u cant stop contacting him. if i dun let u contact him, am i being too selfish? i really dunno. hais. now i really feel tat i cant even do anything. hais. i'm like giving away my gf like tat. hais. wifey, i dun wan to give u away. I WAN U!!!! hais.

***wifey, can u tell me? whether u'll still contact him or stop contacting?

Sunday, August 23, 2009

... there's alot of tots in my mind right now. only those who met me today will noe wat are the tots. and how i am feeling now. i really do not noe y have i become like this. is it good or is it bad? for me i think its good. cause she will be happy. i once told my fren, i dun mind suffering for her. as long as it can make her feel happy i dun mind. but everytime i think of it i dunno y i'll feel like somewhere in my heart is tearing apart. i dunno y. hais.

... think i'll be sleeping early tonight. i just wan to stop thinking of all those tots. argh!!!!

...speechless, helpless and useless...
...speechless, helpless and useless...
...speechless, helpless and useless...
...speechless, helpless and useless...

*** 你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
我想知道他让你痴心是什么
我想知道他让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和他没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中

Saturday, August 22, 2009

... sorry readers. been a long time since i last updated. cause was busy with some things. lols. alot of things happened this few days. hmmm. was busy with camp stuff, finding jobs and some of my personal stuff. luckily now camp thing is over. just tat got one duty haven do yet. lols. and some medical and dental thing to do before i ORD. haha. went for a job interview at kaki bukit. job scope is promoting sony ericsson hp. haha. dunno whether can get. lols.

... many things happened ar. bro edward got a new gf. haha. but she's a vietnamese. lols. dunno whether she's true to him not. hope so ba. some of this gals are only out for money. as u all shd noe. how faithful can a girl from overseas who is working in a nite club be. haha. lets hope for the best for him ba. all the best bro!!!

... secondly, made wifey damn angry ytd and the day b4. felt so bad. i'm sorry wifey. sorry for not letting u noe tat i'll be home late. and for not picking up ur calls ytd. i really felt damn upset with myself. when i woked up i saw ur 99 missed calls. i was damn shocked quickly called u back. but u didnt ans. sorry wifey. when i saw ur msges my heart really broke. and tears rolled down. i'm really sorry. hais.

... today went down to tamp library de bus stop to meet edward. den took a bus to wdls. intended to help wifey get food. in the end she went down to have dinner with her family. so she was too full to eat. so i ask her throw away. hmmm. nvm ba. just afraid she wont have her meals. hmmm. so after tat went to have dinner with edward. den waited some where near wifey's place to have a smoke. tot of meeting wifey, but she say she meeeting her fren so me and edward went back to tamp to meet up with fabian. played arcade awhile den slack.

... after awhile, i went back home while fabian they all went to geylang to meet edward's gf and the girl fabian like. so i went home to be a gd boy. haha. think tats about all. just a summarised post. wahahaha.

***sorry wifey, for hurting u this few days. hope u forgive me ba. miss miss wifey. love love wifey too. ah muacks.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

thanks to the fat slut.

... didnt blog for afew days le. cause got home very late and was tired. so didnt have the chance to blog. hmmm. anw, gonna start blogging from today ba. hmmm. ytd nite spent the nite at wifey's house. cause i'm on off today. so decided to spent time with her. hmmm. trained down to orchard and waited for her to knocked off. when i was in the train there's this fat bitch hu stepped on my 4th toe. some more she was wearing high heels. wtf. and my toe was bleeding. wtf. fucking fat slut.

... when wifey knocked off accompanied her back to wdls and met jia hui to take a disc. den jia hui accompanied us for dinner. walked to one malay coffee shop. quite far. den after eating was damn full. so stayed there talk cock awhile. den jia hui accompanied us walk to wifey's blk downstairs and talk cock awhile oso. in the end talked for ard 1 and a half hours. haha. after tat went up to wifey's hse le.

... today woke up at ard 2. and wifey was late for work. oh shit!!! i'm sorry wifey. when she saw the time she was quite angry. hais. but it was my fault oso. i'm sorry. den prepared quickly and accompanied her down to wait for her cab. when she board the cab i walked to the bus stop and waited for my bus back home. and now i'm back home.

***wifey, i'm sorry for waking u up late. and sorry for reading ur msges. i noe i shouldn't have read it. but this few days u're looking very moody. although u were smiling in front of me. i noe deep in ur mind there's alot of things tat is happening. and i just wan to find ouut more and understand u better. its not tat hubby dun trust u. hais. i'm sorry. i love you, wifey.

***waiting for u to reply my msges. i noe u're angry with me for doing tat. hais.

Friday, August 7, 2009

070809

sians...

thinking of u...

... today was feeling damn sick. argh!!! whole body like damn bu zi zai. dunno wan do wat den will feel better. take medicine oso just feel sleepy. damn it man!!!

... was early for camp today. cause my sergeant came to pick me up from home. when i woke up oredi feeling sick le. but no choice but to go to camp. when i reached camp was damn pissed off. i was no diff to a taxi driver. sending ppl here and there. wtf!!! and i was told tat i had to attend a stupid mini NDP parade. some more i'm on excuse drill and marching. and i'm not feeling tat well. FUCK man!!!

... went home straight after the parade. edward asked me if i wan go out. but i didnt. cause feeling damn restless and sleepy after taking the medicine. hais.

***i tot tat by sleeping i could wash all those tots from my mind. but i was damn wrong. when i woke up all tat started to pop out into my mind. feeling just so sick and terrible. FUCK!!!

06/05/09

... today was late for camp again. hahas. i dunno y this few days keep late for camp. maybe its because of the ORD mood. everything oso dun care le. hahas. even my officer didn't say anything. hmmm. reach camp ard 8.30am. den went to office tot will get punished by officer. but in the end he smile at me. ask me y late. den i tell him excuse he say dun kei siao. he noe i wake up late. lols. but nv say anything oso. hehe.

... feel so bad in the morning when i woke up. cause actually need to wake wifey up at 6am for the paper. but in the end i nv call so she overslept. making her miss the papers. sorry wifey.
:( today in camp oso do the same old shit. orientation driving for new drivers. wtf!!! when will it stop? i'm sick and tired of all this shit le. but no choice got to do. hmmm.

... booked out at ard 5pm. took a lift home from my sergeant. when i reached home was quite tired le. but fab ask me wan meet him and edward at TM not. i say anything. so went down to meet them. had dinner with edward while fab went to meet a girl. after dinner, me and edward like wan slp le. so he msged fab saying tat we go home first. so in the end we went home le.

... when i reached home, on my vcd to watch. "wei xiao pasta". watch finish one disc le. den feel damn tired. so went to bed to lie down. but in the end fell aslp while msging with wifey. sorry orh wifey. she gave me 2 missed calls and 4 msges. but i didnt respond. guess she noes i'm aslp le. leaving her all alone. sorry orh.

... woke up at ard 2.30am. den called her. she like happy. haha. and now... i'm here blogging. hahas.

***wifey, sorry for leaving u alone just now. hubby miss u alot. MUACKS!!!
***bro edward, faster go get S_A_O_ H_N_!!! u can do it!!!